Try Again

Something has clicked recently.

I really have no clue what it is or why but my desire to be healthy has fought it's way back to the surface.  I came across this quote a few weeks back and it resonates with me in so many aspects of my life.

I get the slightest bit overwhelmed in my life and I give up on everything all at once. I allow myself to be defeated. I defeat myself.   I find amazing strength in simply giving myself the permission to fail sometimes but also the permission not to pretend I am perfect at all. And by doing so I am giving myself the opportunity to be awesome at something else today.

Today I was awesome at...

• being calm with my kids
• exercising and eating well
• visiting a friend unexpectedly
• helping my sister with a quick project
• kissing my husband the minute he walked in
• giving my husband the night off to hang with his brother
• Doing the laundry

I failed at...

• Reading for my Nutrition class
• Controlling my temper in regards to things I have no control over...politics
• Forgetting to pick up my kids from school***extra mom fail points here***

And life goes on.

Learning balance in life is perhaps the hardest lesson there is.  I'm beginning to understand that it includes a lot of ignoring the world and listening to the quiet, steady whisperings of your heart, forgiving yourself and others for being human and letting the small, insignificant things be the big things.

A pedicure, hot bath and clean house would have been nice but watching my two year old fall asleep on the toilet this evening was enough to make my entire day worth it.

And so this is the attitude that I am trying to adopt with my desire to lose weight as well. Three pounds down last week felt like a great accomplishment and this week I will just keep taking it one day at a time, forgive myself and move on when needed and have the courage to try again tomorrow.

and kiss your husband!