Sunday, May 26, 2013

Progress

I don't blog anymore but I've been wanting to get together some progress photos for myself for a while and once I did it, I was pretty darn proud. I also posted a bit of a rant on Facebook awhile back after getting really annoyed with people wanting to know what 'magic potion' I was taking and had an old friend ask to see pictures.
Facebook Post:
I've lost enough weight (32lbs with another 25 to go) now that people are starting to comment on it, Thank you! However the next comment is alway along the lines of "what's your secret?" It drives me crazy, there is no supplement, or diet or magical workout. Eat fresh food and less crap. Say goodbye to the soda and hello to water, lots of water. Lift a lot of weights and make sure they are heavy. Don't leave the gym until you are soaking wet and you smell. When you're so sore you can't walk down the stairs, then you're doing something right. I call it literally working my ass off. That's my secret.
 Not sure I'd like them on Facebook but I'll share them here.


October 2010.
I was about to turn 32 and my 4th (and last) baby was 10 months old. Funny thing is I remember thinking I didn't think I was that big I just wanted to be healthier and more active. 
I was 204 lbs.
Yikes.


January 2011, Down 20 pounds, about 184. I did Jillian Michaels DVDs and the elliptical for 3 months and then started Couch to 10K in January.


Ragnar June 2011
I lost 5 more pounds down to 180 but losing weight when learning to run was very hard for me. Honestly I felt very skinny here but still struggled with emotional eating.
A ran about a 13 min mile here.

August 2011
178 pounds
Quit working out about this time.

Top pix are August 2011
Bottom pix are November 2011 in Hawaii
I had gained about 7 pounds back to 185.

Summer 2012
In 2012 I went back to college, worked out sporadically, ate well off and on.
We had family pictures taken in July and they are the first pictures I have ever had printed and felt I looked ok. I attribute that to the confidence I found in exercise.

October 2012
By my 34th birthday I had gained another 9 pounds back to 194. In my second semester of school I had an epiphany about how much I could actually accomplish when I put my mind to it. I had 4 kids and I was going to school full time and pulling a 3.7 GPA. Suddenly I knew I could lose more weight and then instead of thinking I needed it, I suddenly really wanted it.

I spent December 2012 planning what I wanted and how I would get there. 
I wanted to learn to run, not jog and walk. RUN. 
I wanted to learn to swim. I wanted to be 145 pounds. I wanted to keep up with my kids.  
I wanted to be strong. Not skinny. Strong.  
I didn't even take pictures because it wasn't really my main focus.
So I started the Couch to 5K program over for the 3rd time and I signed up for a swim class.


That swim class was possibly one of the best things I've ever done for myself. It was hard. It kicked my but every time. It challenged me and left me wanted to more.  My instructor was awesome! 
And the weight started falling off. 
So did the emotion baggage and lack of confidence and the depression.

I had also signed up for a Biggest Loser Contest at my gym in January. It help hold me accountable but they didn't give you any directions, it was all up to me. My first weigh in the 3rd week of January was 194, my last weigh in the 2nd week of March was 174. 

My pants were literally falling down and I needed a new belt. 
That was fun.

In April I hit a plateau and couldn't get past 170. So I took a step back and gave myself a little test to see if I could maintain the weight for a month.  I ate more and let myself have treats but I still went to the gym 5-6 days a week and kept on my running plan. 


By May I was ready to pick it up again and lost a few more pounds down to 166.4.
As fun as the number on the scale is to see, I have discovered that it is much more fun to jump in the pool and swim laps for 45 mins and not feel like I'm going to die. Fun is heading out for a run and not stopping until mile 3 for a walk break and then realizing it was only my head that thought I needed to walk because my body is fine and so I walk 1 min and then RUN another 3 miles. Fun is seeing my blood pressure go from 130/90 to 105/60 and my heart rate from 75 to 55 bpm. Fun is now running a 10 to 10:30 min mile.
Fun is having my 11 year old son want to go running with me and him not be able to keep up. (Because I let him go with me in 2011 and he would literally lap me until I was in tears and wouldn't allow him to go with me anymore.)  Fun is having my kids look at these pictures and say "Wow Mom! You've lost a lot of weight. I don't even remember you being big like that."



I have lost 37 pounds and would like to lose another 22. I will never say it's not about the number, get real, it is about the number, it may not be the number I originally thought but the number counts. It's about the fit of your clothes and putting on a swimming suit without shame. It's about feeling like you want to participate in life instead of sitting on the couch under a blanket. It's about learning you are stronger than you thought you were, you can push yourself harder than you knew you could. 



I never though I'd be that person getting up early to run and planning my day around the gym because it's is that important to me. But I am.  It's as simple as this...I could sit around being fat and taking antidepressants that don't really fix anything or I can exercise every day, feel great and be skinny.  I'll take the later. Trust me, the pain of working out is way better than the emotion pain of being the fat girl.

I think I'll try to update this with new pictures as I reach my goals this year, which are... 
*Ragnar-Wasatch Back in June
*The Huntsville Half Marathon in September
*And my original goal set back in December is to be 145 by my 35th birthday in October

Now Get Out and Be Awesome!

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Try Again

Something has clicked recently.

I really have no clue what it is or why but my desire to be healthy has fought it's way back to the surface.  I came across this quote a few weeks back and it resonates with me in so many aspects of my life.



I get the slightest bit overwhelmed in my life and I give up on everything all at once. I allow myself to be defeated. I defeat myself.   I find amazing strength in simply giving myself the permission to fail sometimes but also the permission not to pretend I am perfect at all. And by doing so I am giving myself the opportunity to be awesome at something else today.

Today I was awesome at...

  • being calm with my kids
  • exercising and eating well
  • visiting a friend unexpectedly
  • helping my sister with a quick project
  • kissing my husband the minute he walked in
  • giving my husband the night off to hang with his brother
  • Doing the laundry
I failed at...

  • Reading for my Nutrition class
  • Controlling my temper in regards to things I have no control over...politics
  • Forgetting to pick up my kids from school***extra mom fail points here***


And life goes on.

Learning balance in life is perhaps the hardest lesson there is.  I'm beginning to understand that it includes a lot of ignoring the world and listening to the quiet, steady whisperings of your heart, forgiving yourself and others for being human and letting the small, insignificant things be the big things.

A pedicure, hot bath and clean house would have been nice but watching my two year old fall asleep on the toilet this evening was enough to make my entire day worth it.

And so this is the attitude that I am trying to adopt with my desire to lose weight as well. Three pounds down last week felt like a great accomplishment and this week I will just keep taking it one day at a time, forgive myself and move on when needed and have the courage to try again tomorrow.


and kiss your husband!

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Stoked

Yesterday my sister sent me an invite to FitnessPal.com.  I used that site faithfully for about 6 months and it was a huge part of my success in loosing weight.  I was pretty stoked (yes I just used the word stoked) that she was on it and that she was trying to get my Sister-in-laws to do it too.   I do so much better with a little support system.  It's helpful to have someone notice you didn't go to the gym all week.  A small quick message, encouragement or sarcastic comment really makes all the difference for me.
So lets do this girls!
Put down the potato chips!
Lets all be skinny...er by the time we see each other at Christmas!

And feel free to come be my friend if your on there, my profile is missiklee.

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Ready or Not, Here I Go

I have 2012 down on paper. Laying out everything I want to accomplish from school, to fitness, home, personal and spiritual helps me feel like things are much more attainable than they seem.  Seeing things in small attainable goals that build into bigger accomplishments lessens my stress significantly.

January will bring a renewed commitment to weight loss and fitness, a return to college and hopefully 20/20 vision thanks to Lasik.  With some deep breathing I believe I'll be fine. Ready, Set, Go....

January Goals



  1. Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred 3x week
  2. Running 3x week
  3. Track my nutrition
  4. Loose 6 lbs
  5. Kill it in School
  6. Stay on Budget
  7. Daily Scriptures with Family
  8. Bi-Weekly Family Night


Thursday, October 27, 2011

Feeling Lost Right Now

I'm at my 1 year anniversary of my official journey to lose weight and get healthy and I'v been feeling so lost.  

I lost 18 pounds last Oct-Dec 2010 and then I focused on training for a RAGNAR race and maintained the weight loss.  The problem is, I gave myself permission to 'get lazy' over the summer.
 I thought it would be so easy to just jump right back in when the kids got back in school.  I did not realize it would feel like starting all over again.  I just can't seem to find my will power.  
Now I'm starting to freak out a bit because I have gained about 5 lbs since September and I Can NOT let this continue. 
I leave for Maui, Hawaii in one week and when I get back I plan to put it all out there again and start working hard.  I made a goal for myself last year to run a Half Marathon in 2012 and I will not let that goal go.  In fact I have to sign up while in Hawaii and my sister is doing it to, so that will help.  
My new goal weight will be 160.  I get excited just thinking about it!  I would love anyones support and advice!  Now I'm off to make a game plan so I can stick to it! 

Sunday, October 16, 2011

New purpose?

I've been thinking about using this blog for more than just weight loss and fitness.  Sometimes I just have things on my mind that I want to write out and need a place to do it. A personal blog if you will, that doesn't really belong on our family blog. Not that I ever put anything over there anyway. :)


Barry and I have been working on our relationship...don't freak out...we've had a stressful few years and it was starting to affect us.  Neither of us liked the way we were acting and we've just decided to be proactive about it.   Anyway, all this 'Project: Happily Ever After" stuff (that's what I'm calling it) got me thinking about goal setting and planning and now I have this huge 2012 Goals list.


2012 Goals list has me a little intimidated but there was nothing I wanted to remove so now I'm working on breaking things down into monthly goals and sometimes weekly goals.  Yeah, I'm totally OCD like that.  Did I mention I have fitness training schedules for the whole next year and excel spreadsheets for household chores, tracking my weight, calorie counting, the families daily/weekly schedule etc, etc, etc.  I'm a little obsessive like that.  No, really it just helps me sort, process and organize my brain when I'm feeling overwhelmed. Sometimes I only come back to these spreadsheets once a year.


So my point was......I may start sharing other things going on in my life on this blog. Spiritual Goals, Fitness Goals, Marriage tips that work for us, Books I'm reading, School stuff and anything else that's going on with me.  And maybe while I'm at it I'll actually update some photo's of the family over on my other blog.  But don't hold your breath. :)


Here's is this month Goals and Fitness Calendar should that interest you.  I love when other people share this type of stuff, it's a little glimpse into there lives and I may have a innocent tendency to be voyeuristic, but my grandma always told me it was just people watching. ;)