Yes

Try Again

Something has clicked recently.

I really have no clue what it is or why but my desire to be healthy has fought it's way back to the surface.  I came across this quote a few weeks back and it resonates with me in so many aspects of my life.

I get the slightest bit overwhelmed in my life and I give up on everything all at once. I allow myself to be defeated. I defeat myself.   I find amazing strength in simply giving myself the permission to fail sometimes but also the permission not to pretend I am perfect at all. And by doing so I am giving myself the opportunity to be awesome at something else today.

Today I was awesome at...

• being calm with my kids
• exercising and eating well
• visiting a friend unexpectedly
• helping my sister with a quick project
• kissing my husband the minute he walked in
• giving my husband the night off to hang with his brother
• Doing the laundry

I failed at...

• Reading for my Nutrition class
• Controlling my temper in regards to things I have no control over...politics
• Forgetting to pick up my kids from school***extra mom fail points here***

And life goes on.

Learning balance in life is perhaps the hardest lesson there is.  I'm beginning to understand that it includes a lot of ignoring the world and listening to the quiet, steady whisperings of your heart, forgiving yourself and others for being human and letting the small, insignificant things be the big things.

A pedicure, hot bath and clean house would have been nice but watching my two year old fall asleep on the toilet this evening was enough to make my entire day worth it.

And so this is the attitude that I am trying to adopt with my desire to lose weight as well. Three pounds down last week felt like a great accomplishment and this week I will just keep taking it one day at a time, forgive myself and move on when needed and have the courage to try again tomorrow.

and kiss your husband!

Stoked

Yesterday my sister sent me an invite to FitnessPal.com.  I used that site faithfully for about 6 months and it was a huge part of my success in loosing weight.  I was pretty stoked (yes I just used the word stoked) that she was on it and that she was trying to get my Sister-in-laws to do it too.   I do so much better with a little support system.  It's helpful to have someone notice you didn't go to the gym all week.  A small quick message, encouragement or sarcastic comment really makes all the difference for me.
So lets do this girls!
Put down the potato chips!
Lets all be skinny...er by the time we see each other at Christmas!

And feel free to come be my friend if your on there, my profile is missiklee.

Ready or Not, Here I Go

I have 2012 down on paper. Laying out everything I want to accomplish from school, to fitness, home, personal and spiritual helps me feel like things are much more attainable than they seem.  Seeing things in small attainable goals that build into bigger accomplishments lessens my stress significantly.

January will bring a renewed commitment to weight loss and fitness, a return to college and hopefully 20/20 vision thanks to Lasik.  With some deep breathing I believe I'll be fine. Ready, Set, Go....

January Goals

1. Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred 3x week
2. Running 3x week
3. Track my nutrition
4. Loose 6 lbs
5. Kill it in School
6. Stay on Budget
7. Daily Scriptures with Family
8. Bi-Weekly Family Night

Feeling Lost Right Now

I'm at my 1 year anniversary of my official journey to lose weight and get healthy and I'v been feeling so lost.  

I lost 18 pounds last Oct-Dec 2010 and then I focused on training for a RAGNAR race and maintained the weight loss.  The problem is, I gave myself permission to 'get lazy' over the summer.

 I thought it would be so easy to just jump right back in when the kids got back in school.  I did not realize it would feel like starting all over again.  I just can't seem to find my will power.  

Now I'm starting to freak out a bit because I have gained about 5 lbs since September and I Can NOT let this continue. 

I leave for Maui, Hawaii in one week and when I get back I plan to put it all out there again and start working hard.  I made a goal for myself last year to run a Half Marathon in 2012 and I will not let that goal go.  In fact I have to sign up while in Hawaii and my sister is doing it to, so that will help.  

My new goal weight will be 160.  I get excited just thinking about it!  I would love anyones support and advice!  Now I'm off to make a game plan so I can stick to it! 

New purpose?

I've been thinking about using this blog for more than just weight loss and fitness.  Sometimes I just have things on my mind that I want to write out and need a place to do it. A personal blog if you will, that doesn't really belong on our family blog. Not that I ever put anything over there anyway. :)


Barry and I have been working on our relationship...don't freak out...we've had a stressful few years and it was starting to affect us.  Neither of us liked the way we were acting and we've just decided to be proactive about it.   Anyway, all this 'Project: Happily Ever After" stuff (that's what I'm calling it) got me thinking about goal setting and planning and now I have this huge 2012 Goals list.


2012 Goals list has me a little intimidated but there was nothing I wanted to remove so now I'm working on breaking things down into monthly goals and sometimes weekly goals.  Yeah, I'm totally OCD like that.  Did I mention I have fitness training schedules for the whole next year and excel spreadsheets for household chores, tracking my weight, calorie counting, the families daily/weekly schedule etc, etc, etc.  I'm a little obsessive like that.  No, really it just helps me sort, process and organize my brain when I'm feeling overwhelmed. Sometimes I only come back to these spreadsheets once a year.


So my point was......I may start sharing other things going on in my life on this blog. Spiritual Goals, Fitness Goals, Marriage tips that work for us, Books I'm reading, School stuff and anything else that's going on with me.  And maybe while I'm at it I'll actually update some photo's of the family over on my other blog.  But don't hold your breath. :)


Here's is this month Goals and Fitness Calendar should that interest you.  I love when other people share this type of stuff, it's a little glimpse into there lives and I may have a innocent tendency to be voyeuristic, but my grandma always told me it was just people watching. ;)

Just Popping in to Say

I Ran Today!

and it sucked!

I knew it would. Hello? Haven't run since July!

How did that happen?

Funny thing is, as much as it sucked, if I forced myself to remember what that would have felt like 1 year ago than today's run was easy in comparison.

Which blows me away.

2.1 miles done, with lots of walking brakes but no stopping and no whining.